It's my blog and i'll cry if i want to. Whine if i want to.

Well, crying i sure am. I think you would too if you had your heart ripped out and trampled on.

HE left. Walked out after 7 years of being together. It's been one month since it happened n its not till now that managed to crawl out of my shell to face the world.
Why he left? I would never know, i would never figure out. He wants his own space and time, and amidst wanting it, he forgot about all his promises to me. Promises of being together forever, growing old together and strolling hand in hand in the park were all thrown out of the window.

HE said, move on with your life, it's over. Its bloody 7 years, i can't just move on like it's nothing. HE said, you were a significant part of my life, but life goes on. Yar, he forgot that he was my life.
HE said, i need to close this chapter of my life. Yes, thanks for the confirmation that i am but a chapter in your life.
HE is damn cruel.


Well, i tried everything i possibly could. Be nice, give him space. Be pissed off. Be really understanding. Why bother. HE doesn't .HE hurt me so bad and never even bothered to look back. People and friends who know him, know that this is so unlike him. This is so out of character.
I know. If you guys are shocked. Can you imagine what its like for me.

I was in hell. The past few weeks were torture to me. Guys compartmentalize like crazy, and like he said, the chapter was just closed in an instant. I couldn't eat, couldn't work. I know its stupid and all........ but i can't help it. I say i'm ok, but truth is, i'm not....... and won't be in a long time.

I lost the love of my life.