Wow, just realised that i've neglected my blog for 3 days! I've been really swamped with work, and i'm am just so exhausted, maybe from partying, maybe from just the one million and one thoughts running through my head.

Last night was a great night. Went out with my RV track pals for dinner and coffee. Somehow, we managed to hang out like we used to, without any awkwardness, and that was really nice.

But last night, flew by quickly too... i was lost towards the later part of the night, lost in great company, lost in the moment. Didn't want the night to end when it was almost perfect.

This morning came, and wham, i got thrown back into reality. Questions were swirling around my mind, and yet, i came to yet the same conclusion, No, i still can't.

I felt what i haven't felt for a long time, but i am choosing my rationale side, and i'm sticking by it. I am comfortable with that decision, at least for now.

There are other decisions to be made about the future, career-wise. I have to make them quick. At least before tomorrow. There is just this one thing holding me back from taking up this challenge. I am a person, who believes in love, and i would give up anything for real, true and pure love. Right now, i think, there is nothing much for me to give up this challenge for, so i am going ahead with it. I hope this is the right move to make, and i hope everyone agrees with this.

I am keeping my fingers crossed, but not knowing if i actually want this job to come to me......