Had a great day out with Ernie, Ans and his gf, Marilyn. Went to a really cool, funky cafe at Purvis St and the food was just WOW. It was really fun just hanging out with them and it does feel like the old days...

On a weirder note, I blame myself for having the weakest tear ducts in the entire history of mankind. My tears just fall at the drop of the hat and i just can't help it.
It doesn't necessarily mean i am sad when i tear. Sometimes i am pissed, sometimes i am frustrated, sometimes i am just feeling helpless and most of the time, i have no idea why. It is just my way of releasing my pent-up emotions and just a general feeling of helplessness. I know it is weak to cry, but somehow i just can't help it sometimes and it doesn't hafta be because of anything.

Actually all i ask for right now, is for a whole lot of inner strength. I need this strength to tide me through this period of uncertainty, and hopefully before i start to waver and lose it all. There are so many things to consider and it is not going to be any easier from here on, there will be more to face up to in the future. Let go of the past, for i am past it. Time will heal all wounds. I just hope with all my heart, that this someone will be willing to hold my hand through all this, walk towards the future bravely, without letting go of the grip.

Time to make sweet lemonade with the truckloads of lemons that were handed to me.