It's been a long journey and i guess now its time for me to "move on" from here.

I started blogging initially, to jump on this crazy bandwagon some years ago, with little or sporadic updates. It wasn't until last year that i really started to blog.

I typed out alot of my feelings and poured out my woes in my blog and to the people reading it. I kinda grieved online. Then i moved on, to bigger, brighter, happier things that were also documented. I finally put pictures up, smiled for the cam and filled the spaces with fun and a tinge of happiness.

I realised that blogging allowed me to share my world with my friends or anyone reading it, and well, it was a win-win situation, cos it was cathartic for me.

Recently, i think its getting tiresome. The writing? No. But maybe when people start using what is written on my blog and use it against what i say, its tiring. Maybe even when people start judging you from every single letter that you type.

I wouldn't say that i would never blog again, but at least not for now. I think its time to keep some of my life to myself. It was fun while it lasted but i guess its time to blog for myself, and only me.

So thanks all for reading all this while...

Having been blogging all that often, its just that now, i am feeling super sleepy after lunch so i need something to take my mind off work...

Let's see what has been going on in my life recently,

• Had the whole week off for CNY, and caught up on much-needed sleep
• Ang Pow collection dipped this year, but, always a pleasure to receive
• Played 2 nites of all-night mahjong, lost in general, but not in denominations of hundreds which was "heng ah"
• Watched "REAL" which was.... erm... not really a movie but more of a docu than anything. Purely for fans.
• Jason came and went... now he's off trotting the world again.
  
• Officially got asked to be the Bridesmaid at my dear couz' wedding... haha damn excited. Only i think she will be kind and not make me wear green and yellow polka dots
• Caught up with council at Marcus' place... ate alot, talked alot and of course, we spilt lotsa mee siam
• Another wedding coming in July... amazing stuff. 2006 is prob the year of weddings. hah

Last but not least, i have been sitting on my ass and getting fat. ARGH. Just cancelled my sesh of workout tonite with my colleagues and feeling damn stupid...

Well, well, day in the life of Pam, as i shall resume to my usual typing...

Sometimes i do wish i have a spotless mind, where the sun shines forever.

Just watched "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" last night, on dvd. Its a film that makes u think, make you wonder, will you ever wanna go through the process of erasing someone from your memory to stop the pain that this person ever caused.

Sometimes, the person who makes you the happiest is also the person who makes you sad the most, so in order to be happier, you hafta erase this person, including all the happy memories that came along with him/her.

It does feel better sometimes if you actually have an option to do that... so you can move on and forget about the pain, but sometimes u just can't bear to, and you'd rather live with the pain and at least you get to keep the happy memories too.

"How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!"
- Alexander Pope


standing along the closed orchard road last night... with all the lights behind us... Chingay... what a waste of time eh.

Got sick and bored of the old skin... so will stick with this default template till i find a new one...

Cheers!