i count my blessings. i count my blessings every single day.

i am blessed that someone cared enough to give me a surprise gift. how apt.

i am blessed for Daniel Ong, who made him say the words i wanted to hear, to make him realise that it was what he wanted as well.

i am blessed for being able to slack at home on a sunday afternoon, watching my favourite shows.

i am blessed for having a damaged heart, which is still beating, and hopefully on its way to recovery.

"i am scared and damaged but i am doing what i can to repair it..."

well, its been awhile since my last update. five good days. ha.

i didn't actually have anything much to say at first, but i was just reading through my past entries and i was like "WHAT? i actually wrote that? " It is amazing how a few months or even weeks can change your perception, and the way you're actually feeling.

i guess things are kinda better now and somehow, we know now to hold on bettter, i hope.

this was a little excerpt from our conversation today that made me smile:

E: hey, watcha doing? i'm kinda having a really bad headache after the whole day out, think i need to pop at least 6 panadols.

P: huh siao ah, later you OD on panadols ah.

E: really meh?

P: anyway why u suddenly headache again? issit cos you never see me today? (in jest)

E: yar, cos u're like a drug, very addictive.

P: pwah! i take that as a compliment, its been a long while since u said something so sweet to me.

E: er.... (speechless)

well, turns out that E went on to explain that he wanted to liken me to drugs not cos he was "addicted" but more likely i had the "harmful effects" of drugs... hmmmf. But he did say that i could take it whatever way i liked it as long as it made me smile.

Well, some drugs are actually beneficial to you, remember? ha.

From one of my favourite movies... Pretty Woman

Edward: "I know about wanting more, I invented the concept. The question is, how much more?"

Vivian: "I want the fairy tale."