I like to rain on my own parade. I was happy, but yet i like to do things that hurt myself.

Right now, i made a decision, a really tough decision. It hurts like mad, but i'm so tired of second-guessing myself, wondering what's wrong with me, what i did wrong etc etc. I need to breathe. I need to do my own thing, be my own person for awhile. I may regret it sometime soon, or once i click "publish post", but right now, that's the only thing i know how to do.

Looks like i won't get to drink lemonade anytime soon. Lemon juice is fine for now, sour but still quenches thirst.

Life goes on.

Thank you for your words. Every single one of them.